Lo | Lis

"Drunk text me. Text me when the music is loud and there are girls dancing around you and you’re not quite coherent and you’re not quite yourself. Drunk text me that you love me or that you miss me or that I’m on your mind. Let the alcohol tell me all the things you won’t say sober."
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Today is my only day off this week and I decided to do something as opposed to staying home in bed all day. 
I went to the little museum in my town and they have this little creek looking place. 
I had such a nice time by myself. I took pictures. Made videos. I even sat down and read. 
I’m so upset at myself for not coming sooner but I won’t make this mistake again. It was so nice to clear my head and just listen to nature. The wind in the trees, the birds, the insects, and the water rushing in the creek. 
Can’t wait until my next day off to find somewhere new to explore.
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Today is my only day off this week and I decided to do something as opposed to staying home in bed all day.
I went to the little museum in my town and they have this little creek looking place.
I had such a nice time by myself. I took pictures. Made videos. I even sat down and read.
I’m so upset at myself for not coming sooner but I won’t make this mistake again. It was so nice to clear my head and just listen to nature. The wind in the trees, the birds, the insects, and the water rushing in the creek.
Can’t wait until my next day off to find somewhere new to explore.

Currently reading.
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Currently reading.

"Come lay with me. I wanna talk about nothing with someone that means something."

haven’t written in a while

i feel like i am at a weird point.
i am very happy.
yet somewhat sad.
Surrounded by amazing people.
yet lonely.
i’ve started working out
made plans to start eating better
still feel blah.
i go out
i work
still feel blah.
mostly right now its because i’m going to get my period. but i just don’t know really. also i wrote this weirdly, like a poem. it’s not. it is just a rant on my blah life.


i don’t like anyone.
but there is still that someone i want. although they’ve made it very clear they don’t want me. which is really fucking stupid of me because why the hell do i want someone who doesn’t want me? they bitch on social media how they’re done with girls and basically complaining about shit they knew i could have provided from the get! whatever, your fucking loss. why do i even fucking care?


i thought i wanted someone. chased and pursued him. only to lead to me breaking up with him because it wasn’t what i wanted. which sucks too because he’s nice and all but we don’t vibe. “it” is not there and i can’t fake that shit, i can’t fake anything.

work irritates me. my new job is cool. i love the actual job, the work i’m paid to do. but everyone there fucking sucks. don’t talk to me like i’m stupid. don’t look at me like i’m fucking stupid, i’m not. don’t make me feel stupid for not knowing something. i’m new, what the fuck do you expect? also what the fuck is up with grown as people complaining every fucking second? its a JOB. you are paid to do this. so the fuck are you acting like you aren’t? stop acting so fucking annoyed with everything.

my family fucking irritates me. they did this whole “we are breaking up” fiasco, made it look so serious, only to be back to the same shit. like this is why i can’t wait to move away. i love them dearly, but they drag me down, involve me, and hurt me. i spent majority of this week, crying my eyes out because i was so confused and torn, only for them to be all cool the next day. while i’m glad they’re happy i wish they wouldn’t pull out all the fucking stops and dramatic works if they knew they weren’t going to leave each other.

i’m bitching and i’m ranting, i know. but i haven’t said any of this shit out loud and i don’t write on my tumblr like i used to. within the last couple of weeks, i’ve been in some rough spots with friendship issues, family issues, life issues and i should have gotten it out instead of letting it fester inside of me.  i need to get back to this because it truly makes me feel better. sorry it’s been so long. but i’m back..

need this

need this

"People need to be encouraged. People need to be reminded of how wonderful they are. People need to be believed in—told that they are brave and smart and capable of accomplishing all the dreams they dream and more. Remind each other of this."
Stacey Jean Speer (via m0re-adventurous)

mrsdallogay:

mrsdallogay:

my life got about a thousand times better once i stopped censoring myself

and by censoring i don’t mean i suddenly embraced indiscriminate swearing; i mean i stopped trying to sugarcoat my past or my feelings; i stopped lying by omission; i stopped having guilty pleasures; i began unabashedly enjoying whatever i liked; i became very honest; i cut out of my life poisonous people and negative ideals, and i am so, so much happier for it

"You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserves your love and affection."
Buddha (via kushandwizdom)
"You don’t need to be
someone else’s universe
to be able to see
that you are a galaxy.

You don’t need to be
someone else’s light
to be able to appreciate
the way you shine."
m.v., For every girl that ever felt she wasn’t enough.  (via findingwordsforthoughts)
No but really, I hate him.
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No but really, I hate him.

I hate this guy.
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I hate this guy.

"Be careful. You can always add more - but you can’t take it away."
Bob Ross (via zenofbobross)